The Test of Waiting

I have always been mobile- going from one place to another to accomplish tasks, to achieve something and just to be there. I am used to a hectic lifestyle. Waiting for me is a sin. Waiting is time lost. Waiting is unproductivity. Even if I am waiting in lines and in queues, my mind swirls with ideas about how can I go about my task. Botton line is, I have to be moving. I have to be in action. I just have to be doing something. I just have to be somewhere.

But God has tested my patience lately. I have no specific place to go yet. I have nothing specific to do yet. I should just be still and wait for him to tell me, "This is your next step." I believe He is asking me to "wait for him." I am so used in planning my life and mapping my course of action. But at this point of my life, God is saying, "Let me plan your life and see how great my plan is for you." And boy, it is not easy. I want to to seize back the reins of my life and tell God to mind his business. But for some reason, I just know that I just have to leave everything to him now. You may ask, how did I know. I just know. For some reason, I just know that it is my season of waiting.

And this is an encouragement for those who are waiting just like me:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PHztEiKko0E

While I'm waiting
I will serve You
While I'm waiting
I will worship
While I'm waiting
I will not faint
I'll be running the race
Even while I wait

For as the Lord says:

"But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint"(Isaiah 40:31)

Have a blessed waiting time!

Taking Another Leap

It is ironic that just less than a month ago, I was full of hope and brimming with expectations. A lot of opportunities are coming my way which I had the luxury to turn down. I was so confident that I can have a job after I finished my contract. Ever since I decided to resign from the teaching post I held for three years, I spent a lot of times wondering what will the next thing for me. I turned down a job offer in China so I can finish the school year in my current school. I was so sure another job will be offered to me soon. But then, it did not come as I expected. In less than a week from now, I will be jobless.

Countless times I have pondered to retract my resignation. I am so afraid to go out of the portals of the "known" world. I am in fear of not knowing what will be my next step. I want to have some sense of direction. But as much as I fear the unknown, I also fear of staying in my comfort zone. I don't like to stay knowing that my heart is longing to go to another place, to do another thing. It terrifies me to venture into the limbo but I know it will kill me to stay grounded at the same spot just because of fear.

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In a matter of days, I won't be able to walk the halls of the school where I started my teaching career. In a matter of days, I will not be able to talk to the friends I have gained. In a matter of days, I will be waiting until I am given the chance again to teach- in another place. All the assurance I can get is that, my God brings his children from glory to glory. I am one of his children. He will surely bring me from glory to glory. But I have to take that leap of faith- that leap of leaving my comfort zone towards a higher and fertile ground.

There's Only Grace

Feeling God's love in this cold Wednesday morning. What a fitting way to start the day after a night of "lw-morales." Thank you Lord for the message through Matthew West. Truly your love is great. Let me keep that in mind and in heart.

"There's only grace, there's only love

There's only mercy and believe me...

it's enough"